Windy

[tigertoy]

Since I last posted about Windy, he pretty much stopped eating.  He wouldn't eat his dog food at all; some days I could tempt him to eat a little human food, and I was letting him have what he would eat of summer sausage (which seemed to be his favorite), turkey, or whatever I was having for dinner, because I figured not-proper-dog-food was better than eating nothing at all.  Even on his best days he was only getting a few hundred calories, and he was getting very gaunt, but he still seemed to be chipper and happy, though he was getting pretty slow this week.

Last night at 3 AM or so he wanted to go out, and he wouldn't come in.  He made some awful howling noises, and walked right past me a couple of times.  Eventually he came in and got on the bed, but for the first time since he's been sick, he seemed to be really suffering.  I tried to comfort him, and found that his pulse was racing, well over 200.

When I woke up this morning, he was dead.

For my friends worried about me:  I'm OK.  I feel sad, but not devastated.  I think it's easier to handle a natural death than euthanasia, and I've known for weeks that he was not just sick but definitely dying, so I was as ready for it as I could be.

Comments

[sukaycirquegirl.livejournal.com]

Aw man. I know it was not unexpected and I agree w/ you about natural death vs euthanasia - but it is still tough and I know you will miss him.

My heart goes out to you. Take care.

[catalana.livejournal.com]

*hug* I'm so sorry for your loss.

[phillip2637.livejournal.com]

I'm very sorry to hear about your friend.

[starstraf.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about your loss, even though you knew it was coming soon it is still loosing a long time companion

[gundo.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear that. Losing a pet is losing a very good friend.

[msminlr.livejournal.com]

[[[hugs]]]
consider that an IOU
You can collect on it whenever I see you next

I've got an elderly cat that I'm watching carefully; she hasn't stopped eating, but she's lost a lot of flesh lately. It's the black one with the white toes, so she didn't have that much flesh TO lose.

[bammba-m.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm so sorry. Windy was a great dog.

[ericcoleman]

I'm so sorry

[andpuff.livejournal.com]

Hugs and sympathy.

[tollermom]

Well damn... *hugs*

It's never easy... no matter how much you see it coming.

I'm glad that he went naturally and at home, though... I agree that that's much easier to cope with than having to make the decision to euthanize.

I feel for you... hang in there!

*more hugs*

[jerusha.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss. He went at home, though, and in his own time, instead of having to make the Last Trip to the vet.

[born-to-me.livejournal.com]

I'm so very sorry. The loss of a friend who loves you so completely is incredibly hard to bear.

[blur01.livejournal.com]

Humans passing do not make me cry but hearing of the passing of pets and animals I cant take. Im really sorry, Phil.

[poltr1]

*hugs*

As you probably said before, you knew this day was coming, but not exactly when. Take solace in that you gave Windy [mumble] years of a good life.

[pwl1.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that you have lost a friend, but I'm happy that he is not suffering.

[xap]

oh hun :(
*huggs*

[peteralway.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear of it.

[ntrlstgrl.livejournal.com]

Sad...I remember how much it hurt to lose my cat Scarlett...it was a natural death but it was still traumatic 'cause (in my not-so-humble opinion) pets are part of the family...my sympathies...